Sunday, May 10, 2009
dL just nw called mi asking if i was still playing,
n whether i wanna sell my clarinet.
seriously i also donno if i will still play anots.
the reason partly i stopped was becus of tt ting.
and bu zi bu jue i've stopped for arnd 1 yr plus le.
coming this oct will be 2yrs.
time flies.
tink of the money i cld get if i sold it to him.
but there is the feelings there too .
and what if i decide nxt time tt i wanna go bak to play?
i will need an instrument den.
but when will tt be?
i also dunnoe.
i also bu she de to sell away.
but letting it sit there is nt a point either.
i also dunno what to do.
there were many times when i missed making music,
when i got the chong dong to go back.
i have been playing since pri2.
thats like what, 8yrs old ?
i always wished i cld play till 30..40yrs old tt type
of lao jiao.
but tinking of what happened stopped me frm going back.
wanna find someone to talk to abt this.
but cant find anyone suitable to.
i shall ask tan.
so luan.
frustrated.
how i wish i can run away frm this problem.
oh u have no idea how much i hate tt ting.
11:34 PM
