Wednesday, January 31, 2007
just nw during lunch discussed abt our plans aft grad.
back to square one.
tink i will cont study.
gt a few courses i haf interest in.
BUT
no confidence la.
SIM- business
i decided nt to take accounting, cus sec sch acc and uni acc is damn different,
i may lik the secsch acc, but i may NOT lik the uni acc. and if i choose uni acc,
it will be PURELY THAT subject, if i dun like i can go die liao. so might as well choose business,
gt alot variety there. right!?
NTU-business
actually mainly i just want the hospitality n tourism management specialisation in there.
when applyin for poly, wanted to study hospitality n tourism management de,
but cus its at TP, and its so damn freaking far, and its thru DAE, tts y nv choose.
NTU-communication studies.
hmm. i tink i like masscomm. its interesting. who noes, mayb i will be your nx DJ.
HAHA FAT HOPE, XINYI.
dunno leh.
SIM i wanted to take massCom, but u mus haf pre-requisite, tt is, mus haf dip in media studies or masscom den can take tt. SO, im out of reach for that lah!
haiz.
i tink in the end i will end up in sim. why? cus i noe NTU is out of my reach.
GPA 3pointer, mine oni 1pointer.
so i can continue dreaming.
got my pay today,
300plus oni !!
deducted 5days of MC = no payleave.
haiz.
but i remember i took 9days mc leh.
but oni deduct 5days,
will they take away the remaining 4 days nx month,
or they jus pity me n deduct oni 5days?
haha.
dunno!
11:12 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
yest n today wind so big.
so cold la.
dunnit on air con also feel lik gt air con.
tis morning go work,
was walking to wards my dad car den see two plastic bags initially on the floor,
it was flying in the air,
jus lik when gt tornado , typhoon watever u call tt.
wa. so cham la.
lidat will tornado/typhoon/watever/
happen in sg?
hope nt.!
work today was..
preetty okay.
bahs.
jus nw on the way hm was tinking alot.
lik out of a sudden just think alot.
i was talking to a fren once,
told him tt i dunwana get married, dun wan haf kids.
wan to b single forever.
and he asked me,
you nt scared of loneliness?
stunn.
din noe hw to reply tt.
but i jus casually laughed tt question off.
didnt tink of it till today, just now.
loneliness?
how do u define loneliness?
at nite when u r lonely, while ur frens haf their better halves with them,
or lonely when u haf no one to talk to, no one to go out with?
actually i dont noe wat im gibbering abt here.
mayb im scared of tt.
mayb i was just running away frm it all this while.
yes, sumtimes i wish i was attached.
but when i tink of last time.. being attached was so troublesome..
so no life..
so suffocating..
so no freedom.
i immediately shoook tt tot out of my head.
wat for bring urself unhappiness, i told my fren.
n he replied by saying, sometimes its nt totally unhappiness..
gt happy times also.
yeah. but wats the ratio of happiness:unhappiness?
it all depends on the diff individuals.
but who noes myself better den me?
i just KNOW tt there will b more unhappiness den happiness.
cus im like that.
yeh single is good.
but sometimes when i wanna find ppl to go out with,
its jus so frustrating.
most of them r either with bf/gfs or family or watever.
in the end im alone.
at home.
sleeping it off. staring at the computer /tv screen .
actually now come to think of it,
i missed out on a few really great guys inthe past.
but now its all over.
didnt noe them well enuff in the past,
was too afraid.
n now den i realize their goodneess.
all too late.
but nvm.
i wanna be free anyway
=)
10:38 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
oh oh oh. so long no update..
been either too busy or too tired.
anyway. im bak to work.
yeah.
was told some stuffs which im damn dulan abt.
but i shant mention in here, lest kana more trouble.
friday wen to marina square aft work with drew,
bought my aunt's adaptor, my mp3's extra batt, my cousin's present.
wah big buy lor. spend lik arnd 100plus within tt 2hrs.
hbahaha.
aft tt went bak to sch to find them haf dinner.
met them at amk straightaway.
so lil ppl la. oni mi, drew caro kahyip n benita.
and it was raining .
luckily kahyip went hm to get umbrella.
went to eat at s11,
saw weisiong with his cell grp,
saw xavier. nat.
talk with them .
den chloe came.
went home.
so tired.
slept at arnd 2plus..
den nx morning wake up ,damn tired.
went out, go central prima deli buy cake firs..
celine ask mi help buy for mrong.. his birthday ma.
so chose a 1kg blckforest cake.
carry to sch lik wanna die lidat.
cus i scared topple.
den in train also damn difficult to handle.
luckily nt alot ppl la and found a seat to sit.
reach sch, go find celine n den cher n andrew.
help with the booth stuff,
celine call mi ask mi go celebrate ong birthday,
went with cher.
left andrew there alone.
sorri andrew!
so yeh , gave ong a surpirse.
aft wich, we went out to eat with ong, wong, celine, me cher n weiliang.
ate zhicar,
ta paoed bak for andrew n sharon .yeah.
reached sch, nicholas msged mi telling mi he's in nyp!
he came with his frens to ewatch the hiphop hunt.
nice meh!?
anyway, he came find mi aft tt.
sooo long no see him .
yeah.
aft tt, he went bak to find his frens.
stayed at the booth till arnd 5lidat.. den we pack up..
aft tt went aunt hse,
weiqi birthday celebration mah.
reach there SO hungry. i also dunno why.
den i started attacking the food.
later tt quite full le.
den kailun call me,
ask mi wan to go eat at gombak there de prata with him n peisean aft they close shop.
grr.
i eat so much liao den call me.
but anyway, agreed la.
so near my hse oni wat.
den if i dun eat also can jus acc them .
left may hse arnd 10,
then go gombak mit them.
walk to the prata shop,
saw the singapore/malaysia soccer match.
actually im nt interested in soccer la. but they wanna watch.
penalty kick i tink.
den the hardware shop auntie also sit there watch, close shop liao still sit there watch.
den gt quite a few ppl come watch too.
finally aft sg won,
walk to prata shop.
found a place to sit.
ordered,
ordered one meerebus, 3 pratas, one murtabak and 10 otahs.
i so full la .
den ate abit lor. cus sae is share de.
den gt tis cat jump beside mi the chair,
kailun go tell us got one big mouse there.
i saw it n screamed, peisean also follow me scream.
everyone turn n look at us.
hahaha.damn paiseh n funny la.
aft tt arnd 12 liao..walked peisean to the mrt station.. den kailun n i walked bak frm gombak.
he la. kip scaring mi telling mi ghost stories.
dundare to go hm man.
luckily he walk mi bak .
else relly dun dare to go hm sia.
den bathe, watch mobtv.
slept at arnd 3am..
today go work..
is with kailun..
den he kip telling mi stories abt his friend la.
his friend damn funny.,
cldnt stop luffing.
work was okay i guess,
just tt boss came at arnd 6 to make viennese swirl,
den we both a bit dun dare to talk so much also .
haha.
so tired nw.
lack of sleep!!
tml work!
11:57 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
im bored to tears at home!!
been staying at home for the past 5 working days.
mon, had diarhoea. tues. initially had hospital app.
but coincidently, my head was feeling hot n heavy when i woke up.
and tadaa.
i had fever. blardy fever and it lasted mi frm tues till today.
blardy hell .
went hospital for my checkup,
tt doctor of mine say nothing, gave me 2 days mc.
on thurs, fever still on and off.
so went to doc again.
doc also dunno why my fever is there on and off.. and i haf nothing else which ails me.
say mayb is viral infection or dengue.
hell dengue?
but he sae nornally 5days later aft running blood tests den will noe if is dengue anot.
so he gave mi ANOTHER 2 days mc,
plus antibiotics, and asked me to come bak to see him on sat to see how.
arghs.
n i cldnt slp a wink last nite.
head was aching like crazy .
like some little ball kept rolling in my head.
den my fever shot up again.
dammit.
and i tot today, being a FRIDAY,
i can finaly go bak work.
but no. arghs.
and im bored to tears at home.
and apparently dunno wat the hell is wrong with mobTV.
die la total ipp period gt 9days MC le.
tis month pay going to get arnd 300plus.
xin hen tong ahhhhh..........
i HATE panadol.
panadol is the worst medicine ever invented.
it sucks totally.
n my head is still hurting.
6:51 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
nv go work today.
lao sai.
morning stomach pain till wake up go toilet make bomb.
HAHAHA .
tml gt hospital app.
3:15 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
cut n dyed my hair today!
aunt sponsered!
now my hair color looks much better.
not so lian-ish.
work tml.
12:32 AM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
pple are morphing into strangers veri fast.
2:16 AM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
been thinking and thinking.
in 1 month n few days time..
i will b graduating..
out of nyp..
have studied for lik 12 yrs, if u count frm pri1..
and will be officially 20 tis end of the yr..
(although its a bit too early now)
but i dun feel 20.
20 seems so old.
i dun FEEL 20.
i dun LOOK 20.
i feel lik im still a kid.
hahaha.
but have to face facts.
i will b graduating in a month plus time.
and what am i going to do after that ?
my uncle has been asking,
my auntie has been asking.
tt day she specifically CALLED me to ask..
to talk abt wat i shld do ..
i din noe wat to ans her..
jus entertain her by saying 'yeh' all the way.
n my uncle..
he kept asking mi to continue study..
take degree..
will be better he said..
den he ask mi wan to do wat type of job..
bla bla..
den sae he help mi kip a lookout..
i was like...
HUH .
n i still entertain him tell him i mayb wan study parttime or wat..
oso dunno.
n i feel obliged to go study in uni cus i'm afraid if i don do tt..
my relatives will look dwn on me .
but i noe i shld do tt.
i shld do wat i want to do.
but.
im easily influenced.
i hate it when ppl ask mi nowadays wat i wan to do aft grad..
and when i answer 'dunno' to them ..
i feel so.. i dont noe.
lik i haf no plans for my future.
its nt tt i haf no plans..
or mayb i relly haf no plans.
but i jus cant imagine me already a grad frm poly..
its jus so unbelievable.
i tried thinking that i wan to cont study..
in uni maybe.
but the mere tot of going to lectures.. tutorials.. having exams..
scares me.
or rather, makes me want to run away.
i dont want to go thru all tt anymore.
yet i feel lik studying wat i am interested in .
mayb nt full time, but part time..
but in NUS, NTU all tt?
NO WAY.
it may be interesting..
but i feel tt..
im nt THAT kind of study material..
no.
den i tot of mayb going to SIM ..
study accounts..
tts wat i wanted to study initially in poly.
but peisean nw studying tt.
den i everytime hear tt she nit to revise all tt..
i waas tinking..shit!
i dun even REVISE my work.
hell no.
im those kind of last minute ppl .
NO.
n i am kind of rejecting the idea of going SIM now.
n its freaking expensive, hearing what peisean tell me.
they send bills to you for whatever shit..n she doesnt even noe wat shes paying for.
hell.
den i tot of working..dun study further.
maybe study part time degree.
i feel lik studying accounting, mass com, psychology, early childhood..
tink tt tis are interesting,
but the mere tot of studying really puts me off.
its lik i cant stand it anymore.
work ?
work as wat ?
office?
nw my attachment..
i realize i cannot stand working in office..
i mean.. the work i do is ok..
its just the environment i guess..
n the office wear which i detest totally.
i guess im the kind who cant be tied down.
its the same for me in relationships.
=)
then wat will i work as?
open pet shop?
haha. i said tt the other time cus it jus came to my mind suddenly.
open a business of my own ?
that sounds crazy.
i cant even manage my room. cant even manage MYSELF.
how can i manage a business?
no way.
be a teacher?
sounds easy. but its not.
i wan to be in the CID..
but.. my medical condition is a problem.
band music..
last time i had the thought tt i wld still be playing in the band when im in my 20s..30s.. 40s..50s.. till old..
but now ?
because of some stupid irritating childish inconsiderate fcuked up pple..
i guess im nt going to accomplish tt.
i was thinking..if my resume.. had tt band thing in it..
wow. it wld b so ...
i dnt noe.
accomplished? amazing? satisfying? envy?
i dont noe the word for it.
kind of miss band. =anyway. back to the topic.
doing part time jobs for the rest of my life ?
crrazy.
i actually tot of being an actress b4..
but i lack the guts.
lack the guts to act in frnt of so mani ppl..
lack the guts to go for those star idol contest which i tink is so ridiculously stupid and lame.
so mayb im hoping for some ppl to talent spot me.
(yeh right as if tts gonna happen)
wat else is a choice for me?
i tink everythings a choice.
just that how i look at it.
whenver frens ask me..what am i going to do aft grad..
im at a loss of words.
n hearing what they say..
some say wnna study uni..
sme sae wanna start business..
they sound so confident.
they sound so sure.
listen liao i feel so.. dumb n useless.
like a mei chu xi kind of person.
im not a u-can-tie-me-down kind of person.
i need to be a free n easy person.
so maybe,
if anyone wants to start a business,
u can consider me as ur partner?
or i can be ur employee.
but i tink no one will wanna hire me.
maybe i will study part time and work at the same time,
n think carefully for one yr if i wan to study uni.
i STILL DONT NOE WAT I WAN TO DO AFT TYPING SO MUCH.
theres still no conclusion.
just let me die in an accident tml.
tt will make things easier.
i need opinions.
11:50 PM
got this from an email:
The main causes of liver damage are: 1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause. 2. Not urinating in the morning. 3. Too much eating. 4. Skipping breakfast. 5. Consuming too much medication. 6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and artificial sweetener. i tink im going to die early.
cus number 1, 3,4,5 applies to me.
11:48 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
update update!
yest went to simlim with kf, kahyip n drew .
finally got my camera !
went thru alot rounds of shops asking prices,
listening to wat those shop ppl say abt wat camera..
all say diff thing de lor.
some say sony better.
some say sony nt good.
den alot alot also la.
say until we confused too .
den till tis guy demonstrate casio de z700 and sony t10 for us to see.
den we realize tt sony is relly NOT tt good .
set my mind on getting casio z700 as the z60/z70 is lik old models le..
den the shop which demonstrated to us, selling z700 at 525, tog with 1 gb memory card and case n screen protector.
but lik so out of my budget la.
den we went shops to shops ask price..
benita came..
some lower..
den so happy la.
tot can buy.
but gt one tell us sell 460.. but haven plus warranty n gst..
add up to 500plus too.
shit one la. all wan to bluff ppl one nv tell full price.
den gt one sell 485, without gst.. with gst is 510 ..
try to ask for less lik 500 ..
he at firs dun wan .
den awhile later he go ask his dunno who..
den come bak tell mi say sell mi at 500.
hohoho.
so happy lah.
but actually is must thank andrew n kahyip more..cus they 2 talk more den me..
machiam is they buying lidat..
i jus stand there listen ..
nt good at bargaining mah..
finally bought..
den the shops also wan to close le.
den go haf dinner..
at ajisen..
don like lah.
but all want..so go lor.
tried the spicy miso ..
still can la.
but relly spicy like siao !
i used up 2 packets of tissue..
den wanted to ask the person for a bowl of clear soup..
den can 'wash' my noodles inside b4 eating ma.
but paiseh lah.
dden when i finally finish eating..
the person come clear my bowl ask me,..
veri spicy ar.?
so obvious la of cus !
...
den we headed to opp bugis the street..
got alot eating places there..
got this cafe kiafang brought us there..
called C.A.N cafe..
the ambience there quite nice..
inside is dim lights..den gt music..
seats are soft sofa..
but the bad thing is they allow ppl to smoke in the air con area too ..
drinks r creative..
but also nt cheap.
sat there slack and talk.
initially wanted to catch the last train back..
but sit until veri shiok..
so decided to catch night rider bus..
sit till arnd 1.45am lidat..
den went bak ..
wanted to catch nR bus de
but lik v late le
den dad kept calling to ask mi where am i . fastr go hm..
so took cab .
was smelling of cigg smoke all over.
cldnt stand it!
go hm faster bath..
slp at 4.30 lidat.
today morning woke up arnd 11.
cus meeting aunt they all 1230 at suntec for lunch.
den drag myself up.
was feeling groggy.
had lunch at suntec guildhse..
also tried out my camera..
still nt familiar with the functions yet..
den had ben n jerrys ice cream..
the cup with the waffle inside no more le.
sad!
den they wanted to go hm le..
last min decided to go aunt may hse .
so nv follow em home..
follow aunt may.
walk arnd abit
den went bak to their hse..
play wit qi.
SO tired.
xueheng kip askin mi to SEE him play maple..
tried to sleep .
den qi keep disturbing. ask mi dun slp.
but manage to slp a while oni .
den she came in,
with ferrero rocher in her mouth..
ask mi wake up..
pulling mi up.
gave up la. scared she spit the chocolate on me.
den get up,
go watch abit tv..
unclemax bought dinner hm..
aft tt went home le.
so tired la
tml work.
sian la. no clothes to wear for work.
all my pants are so loose.
arghs.
10:48 PM
terminate me.
fine.
i cant blame anyone except for myself.
but it all boils down to one person who created all this.
that is YOU.
3:46 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
back from KL!
fRiday ...
aft work went to find peisean to get her mp3 playr to bring to kL..
den went home..
had a quik dinner n bathed..
did some last min packing
den dad fetched mi to gombak mrt..
took train to krAnji to mit them.
i felt like a criminal on the run with my big bag.
hahah.
n i realized the bigger a bag i had to bring to overseas..
the more tings i will pack inside..
so no matter how big my bag is..its still heavy.
in the end i reached first..
waiting for them i see so many ppl coming out of the race course..
all jusfinished horse betting la.
finally one by one came..
den we took bus to jB..
xavier's dad came to fetch us..
he looks damn young lor .
dun look lik a father at all.
hoho.
den he brought us to haf dinner/supper..
ordered alot tings..
quite nice..
but a lil on the oily sIde..
den he drove us bak to xav's hse to stay for the nite..
his hse alot dogs!
wo xi huan.
mi nat n kf slp in the aunt's rm. cus its empty..
den the guys slept in xav's rm.
slp for arnd 2 hrs.den wake up at 5.30 le.
cus we takng 6.30 de bus..
den mus leave the hse arnd 6am..
his dad fetched us to the bus station..
n off we took e bus to kL!
slept along the way cus was so tired..
reached arnd .. 11plus bah.
reach le cant check in hotel also .. cus oni can check in at 2pm..
den we left our bags at the lobby ..
den go the shopping centre beside to haf lunch..
the shopping centre quite big la..
its connected to e hotel de..
ate at this kim Gary restaurant..
is hongkong restaurant lai de.
food quite nice.
managed to try the 'yuan yang'
wjhich is coffee n tea mixed .
hongkong famous drink leh.
den walk abit..
check in to the hotel le.
aft check in ..
rest awhile..
den we took cab dwn to one utama..
walked arnd there..
saw tis puma bag veri nice..
dunno wan to buy nt cus scared nt enuff money in the end.,.,
so nv buy ..
had dinner at aNw.
soooooo many hundred yrs nv eat tt le.
den we wanted to sing kbox..
but there is call REDbox.
haha.
so cabbed dwn to THE CURVE ..
had a difficult time to find the REDbox.
in the end reach there..arnd 10 plus ba.
den asked the counter person..
she tell us if checkin now den sing till 1.30am is rm48..
but if frm 2am - 6 am is rm 38 ..
den we were tinking tinking wan anot.
in the end decided nt to ..
so go bak hotel..
had a very difficult time to find a cab..
cus it was hari raya haji the nx day or smthing i tink..
den most of the cab drivers are malay ma..
den they stay hm n prepare..
drew they all cabbed bak firs..
den mi kf n xav took a long time to find cab..
den we walk frm inside to outside main road to find ..
den gt tis guy in frnt of us also waiting..
so long later finally a cab came..
picked up tt guy ..
den stopped in frnt of us ask us go where..
den he sae shun lu so pick us up too.
so weird leh share cab with strangeR..
reached the hotel..
went to the guys room ..
took off my shoes den suddenly they sing birthday song
and i saw this cake from the cupboard.
xia si wo.
surprise la.
haha.
kahyip was hiding in the cupboard holding the cake..
hoho.
den they gave mi present..
it was the puma bag!!
hahaha.
thanks alot ppl!
first time birthday celebrated overseas with frens in hotel room..
den ate the cake ..
they watched soccer..
went to bath firs.
aft tt .. go bak to the guys rm..
see them play cards.
den tired le.
wen bak to rm and slp.
nx morning woke up at 8plus..
to go eat brekfast buffet.
wake up tt time my throat wasnt feeling good.
lik got one lump of thing inside
den when swallow veri xin ku.
so eat veri slowly..
aft eating..wen bak to room
to rest..
fell asLp lor.
den wake up arnd afternoon..bath den go out.
went to times squar.
the place freaking big la.
dunno how to walk also .!
n i was feelin a bit feverish.
totally no mood.
den felt hungry.
go eat the mr ramen .
nt tt fantastic.
haiz.
decided to go sungei wang..
took train there!!!
first time take KL train..
the card is last time we use those card..
slot in and then it come out one..
so fun ..
took oni 1 station de train ..
tot can kip the card..
but the machine kip the card..sadded.
wen sungei wang..
wah the place freaky crowded.
so packed.
den the ppl there almost lik ahbeng type de
abit scared la.
walk abit ..
den walk to BB plaza ..just beside oni
wanted to go tere get sports stuff.
den dunno y..
the place lik gt lesser sports shop den last time i went with nat ws n tang..
saw this boys nike shirt relly veri nice..
wanted to get for myself..
but dun haf my size leh.
sadded.
den walk abit more..
wanted to go bak hotel le..
to get ready to countdwn in our hotel rm..
most of us were desparate to change money..
den alot mony changer nv open..
den at midvalley there..
gt 2 money changer open..
tis part damn funny la.
den we wre standing out side the money changer
to see who wan to change how much ..
den scared change le nt enuff or too much..
den wan in te end decide to change individually..
BUT
when we turn ..
the money changer CLOSE le!
ARGHs.
den we faster rush to the one beside 2 shops away..
tt one also close le!
damn funny la!!!!!!!
den we go carrefour..
buy stuff for our countdwn..
cup noodles.. titbits..drinks..
all amt to rm 60 plus.
den go to Chilli bar..
wait for them to go bak hotel rm to put the stuff..
den ordered our food n ate.
damn tired lor.
still say wanted to sing k from 2-6am .
by the time we finish eating is 12plus am .
go bak hotel rm..
i tink we all tired le..
all fall aslp till nx morning.
wake up arnd 10plus lidat.
bathe.
den go the guys room..
all faster pia the cupnoodles n titbits. n sparkling juice n drinks.
comical lah.
den mi n kf went for some last minute shopping.
wen to buy body shop products..
cus some cheaper..
n they had my Spring Orchid perfume!!
bought 3 of tt..
and shower gel ..
and some tea tree facial oil blotter for my aunt..
amount to rm 200 plus.
den the person gave mi free bodyshop member..
but oni for malaysiA la.
den if spend to rm300
can get one item free..
hohoho.
nx time lor. go JB can use.
keke.
den went to RHS to search for my nike shirt.
but dun haf.
SAD.
den kiafang bought her bag at roxy..
i bought this relly nice roxy hp strap ..
den time up le..
faster go basement Dunkin Donuts..
bought donuts hm for my family to eat..
den go bak lobby mit them le...
took cab to pudu raya to take coach bak to SG..
nearly missed the bus man.
but luckily managed to make it in time.
bus wasa at 2.30 pm ..
reached SG arnd 7plus..
den went for dinner tog at cwp. .
aft tt was hOme..
reached hm unpacked,
watched gong and slept.
today woke up at arnd 1 pm .
ate some food and watched tV..
went to my aunt's place at 4plus to pass her her stuff.
n the donuts.
hoho.
den went for dinner at M hotel..
steamboat buffet.
my dad got vouchers la.
ooh the food .. got alot prawns.
the prawns look so nice.
and taste so nice.
got drunken prawns sommore!
wahaha.
and green tea icecream!
wahaha.
im so fat now.
tml's work.
10:48 PM
