Saturday, December 31, 2005
hah. i'm finally 18. OFFICIALLY 18.
do u get the 'high' feeling when its like... 12 midnite.. officially ur birthday ... den most of ur friends msg u or call u .. wishing u happi birthday ? yes i do get tt kind of high feeling when its 12midnite... n my frens wish mi happi bday ...be it by sms or msn or phone ... its just a nice feeling la. but i think tts the oni happy thing i feel happy about. haha. am i making any sense here? don think so. i dont feel happy.
12:23 AM
Friday, December 30, 2005
| Your Birthdate: December 31 |
 You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.
Your strength: Your dependability
Your weakness: You hate being alone
Your power color: Midnight blue
Your power symbol: Shell
Your power month: April |
1:40 PM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
currently feeling so down. its so all of a sudden tt i felt so down. DOWN. sad. some stuff are really just so unpredictable. i wanna tok to someone. i cant write it down here. no. i cant. AH! i'm falling. i cant control myself. i nit help. just now in the afternoon rose called. yea. she had tis job lobang for me. also telemarketing la. dunnit to sell ting. jus surbey ppl abt their job . bla bla bla. basic pay is 5/hr. but if gt ppl agree to something (i forgot wat) can get 10 bucks. and if they actually came down for the interview can get additional 3bucks. somethng like tt la. cant remember. it sounded quite good. there r 3 shifts. 10-2, 2-6 or 6-10. 4hr per shift la. but i dunno if i shold take up the job offer. cus of the OPEN HOUSE!!!! its in like.. less den a months time?? n nth is confirmed. arghs. n i am the ic for it. i feel so sucky. i don tink im suitable to b ic for ANYTHING. i jus don haf the power n determination or wahtever. its jus so maddening. i wanna take up the job. but i cant jus simply shirk off my responsibility as the open hse ic right? its jus nt right. no! rose asked mi to call her bak nx wk to confirm if i wan the job. arghs. AH!!! i feel so irritated. so sucky. arGHS. haiz.
dont treat me so good if u don haf feelings for medont treat me so good unless u wan me to fall for youdont treat me so good otherwise i will fall for youi think i'm already doing it
10:10 PM
woo. camp up is over ~ a 2d1n camp bcame to a 1 day camp...cus .. nt enuff participants.. but nvm lor . yest woke up early went to sch ... initially wanted to stayover in sch wit the rest ...but changed my mind in e end .. den haf briefing... n the participants came in slowly one by one. all latE! shld haf 27 lidat participants... but... actual fact.. less den tt came.. haiz. den had 3 grps .. one grp gt arnd 5 or 6 ppl ?? cant remember la. i was in charge of grp2 together wit jes.. haa... they played the games... den had the cheer n skit ting... all very typical camp stuff la. den tis wet attack game... wick kana-ed us all wET. there was tis guy threw one bucket of water at jes... haiyo. den zhong en also ... threw one whole bucket of water all over mi while i was picking up the rubbish. grrs. cold lah. had dinner. 6 course dinner plus dessert at north. den was skit n prize presentation ... n off they went home ... totall was a veri tiring day.. but i guess they had fun?? hope so bah .. hope camp eagle outcome is not like this ...so few pple...
4:47 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
MERRY CHRISTMAS all my dear friends ~
1:05 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
its christmas eve! yeah.n im at home right now... alone.. with my grandma la. my mum went to aunt cat hse.. cus they invited uncle bernard over there... but i dun lik bernard tt bunch .. so ... yeah. i nv go. den my bro ... the stupid idiot overweight brother of mine got bbQ at his fren hse... my dad fetch them go. so sianz. even my bro got ting on. while im jus slacking at hm on a christmas eve. yeah. but even if go out ... its gonna rainm soon. and .. sure alot ppl ... so boring both ways. hais. i want to buy my perlini's silver stuff!! and jeans frm SnK.! and gio stUff? HAIZ.
3:10 PM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
i'm trying to blog everyday. but. hais. today had 2203 test. 35%. and i dint study. meant to study. but last nite was too tired. fell asleep. meaning to wake up in thee middle of e nite to study. but i slept thru. hais. during the whole test i felt so helpless lah.20 over markx nv do. sure fail tis module. tink prac test haf to buck up. but. i suck at the prac too. why nt jus say i suck at tis whole module better right. arghss. tday was firs booth of the white xmas. was wrapping cookies at first.. den go club rm study awhile den go test. aft tt feeling dwn lars. den jus go booth there n mope arnd. or rather . sit there n do nth..tok alot wit calvin teo. guess we both were feeling low la. packed up e booth wit the others.. den went cwp with cher ... to buy christmas presents.. actually mainly is cher buying la. haha. waalked arnd firs.. den haad dinner at mos burger..mm ..had the fish burger. i jus like their fish la! haa. den we wen to cold storage buy stuffs... went watsons buy the hair gel they needed cus nt enuff.. den go popular buy the wrapping paper for the cookies.. and yeah.. i bought a nike water bottle ... baby blue color .. small small cute cute one.. haha.. so nice. den don haf to bring my sigg bottle .. cus tt one is metal..quite heavy at times.. den acc cher go pay her piano fees.. n we came home le! ha. its been a tiring day .. n arthur just nw called mi to tell mi tmL gt life sci test... oMfg. but lucki is open book la. so nt so bad i guesS?? my laptop nowaadays.. got problem la... sumtime canot switch on..sumtime i switch on liao den it shut off .. den initially i tot is batt prob .. so i took away the batt.. but.. also the same.. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis. amanda is in thailand nw.. i didnt gib her the model of levis i wan her to help mi buy...no time la. grr. guess no fate. 2 more days till term break. 4 more days till christmas. 6 more days till camp up. 10 more days till i'm officially 18. 11 more days till year 2oo6. what a boring life i haf. HAIS.
10:53 PM
Saturday, December 17, 2005
hy's concert is finally over. jus nw aft sch stayed bak to do some proj stuff... den stayed at booth for awhile... n went dwn to huayi .. reached there ..saw them all abt ready le.. den did some last minute stUffs.. n tadaa. the concert started. some seniors haven buy tix yet so i was rushing in n out of e sch hall to pass them the tiX.. sengchong they all lagi worse.. the security guard dwnstairs dun let them into the sch compound without the tickets.. so i had to go dwn n 'save their lives' .. hahas. so damn tired. den interval.. den ross roy finally came.. its us, seniors turn to be on stage~ on impromptu..we decided to thank mr tan for inviting us to plaY once again with the members.. aha... can see mr tan was relly happy ba. den play ross roy... n played the xmas disco .. so shitty.. tt song dunno hw... sight read 2nd time oni nia. . den gt the encore piece .. is a piece we played b4... bacharach... but i guess we all the seniors forgot hw to play le... gee. den came to the end of the concert le .. they gave token of appreciation to tan ... wong .. the teacher called mr ting .. n ms foo ... n .... me and bunchin for our help!!!!! haha.. we each got a box of ferroro rocher n a teddy bear.. so nice n sweet. initially i was still asking tbc if we wld get any token of appreciation anot b4 the concert started. at least tis goes to show tt they arent tt forgetfuL n heartless after all huh. hehes. kept our instru... toOk some photos... den mi ..tan and ps went to eat ..go imM.. but almost everyting close... left mac. so ate mac. as usual ..talk alot la.. den tan fetch us hm.. hmm..tml goin temple .. den go banD..sunday gt performance at paragon outside with youth .. .at 2pM..do come support! =)
12:48 AM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
finally the tests are all over.. the day i dreaded came today.. jus nw on the way to lec.. i had another fit .. damn it.. n it so happened at the stairs ...luckily it was at the bottom of the flight of the stairs .. or i wld had rolled dwn the stairs liaoz.. well.. i duno wat happened nx... but i cld hear wat was happening subconciously.. heard felicia calling my parents..heard some teacher helping mi n bla. i tot i was dreaming. but too bad. it wasnt a dream. den i was helped to the conf. rm to rest.. i cried uncontrollably in the conf. rm.. i also dunno why .. but i haf this habit to cry when ever aft i have another fit. i feel so .. like a burden to ppl arnd me..feel so stupid n idiotic.. but i managed to cool off aft crying .. den felicia they all kept making jokes ..at least i cld still luff at their jokes aft tt. my parents came n brought mi hm to rest... slpt all e way to 7plus.. theres a bruise on my hand.. duno hw i got tt.. and my head is still feeling pain.. dunno gt knock my head ma. hais. sometimes its nt tt i dun wanna rest early, nt tt i dun wanna slp early. its jus tt with the club stuff n my sch work n all the tests. hw u want mi to rest n slp early like i want to ? im nt trying to push the blame to the club n all .. but tts the truth ma. in poly..hu slps early ?? i can tell u ..less den 10% of students in poly slp early at 10 or 11. the earliest they go to slp is at 12. tts all i can say. n the club.. dun xpect mi to quit jus cus its taking up alot of my time. i wun give up on it. cus its part of my life nw. its part of one of the reasons i enjoy going to sch for. im already trying my very best to get enuff slp for myseLf so tt i wun be over-xerted. if god wants to give mi this kind of shitty life. i jus haf to accept it. wat can i do abt it ? can i change my fate? can i change my life? no.
nuff said.
11:52 PM
finally the tests are all over.. the day i dreaded came today.. jus nw on the way to lec.. i had another fit .. damn it.. n it so happened at the stairs ...luckily it was at the bottom of the flight of the stairs .. or i wld had rolled dwn the stairs liaoz.. well.. i duno wat happened nx... but i cld hear wat was happening subconciously.. heard felicia calling my parents..heard some teacher helping mi n bla. i tot i was dreaming. but too bad. it wasnt a dream. den i was helped to the conf. rm to rest.. i cried uncontrollably in the conf. rm.. i also dunno why .. but i haf this habit to cry when ever aft i have another fit. i feel so .. like a burden to ppl arnd me..feel so stupid n idiotic.. but i managed to cool off aft crying .. den felicia they all kept making jokes ..at least i cld still luff at their jokes aft tt. my parents came n brought mi hm to rest... slpt all e way to 7plus.. theres a bruise on my hand.. duno hw i got tt.. and my head is still feeling pain.. dunno gt knock my head ma. hais. sometimes its nt tt i dun wanna rest early, nt tt i dun wanna slp early. its jus tt with the club stuff n my sch work n all the tests. hw u want mi to rest n slp early like i want to ? im nt trying to push the blame to the club n all .. but tts the truth ma. in poly..hu slps early ?? i can tell u ..less den 10% of students in poly slp early at 10 or 11. the earliest they go to slp is at 12. tts all i can say. n the club.. dun xpect mi to quit jus cus its taking up alot of my time. i wun give up on it. cus its part of my life nw. its part of one of the reasons i enjoy going to sch for. im already trying my very best to get enuff slp for myseLf so tt i wun be over-xerted. if god wants to give mi this kind of shitty life. i jus haf to accept it. wat can i do abt it ? can i change my fate? can i change my life? no.
nuff said.
10:59 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
lalalala. feeling sad.
nv expected stuff to turn out this way.
dunno watta say le.
blehsss.
open house!! stress!!
project!! stress!! arghs
12:52 AM
Monday, December 05, 2005
sat went to malaysia wit the club pple.. gt mi.. bern .. weisiong...jes n ridzman ...went there mit xavier..n he drove us arNd.. heh.. den go mit kahyip ..andrew.. mervyn..nat n jY... mit liao all so high .. den we went toeat bak kut teh .. poor ridz had to ta pao food from the stall nx door sit wit us to eat ...den gt this dog kip coming to disturb... ridz scared like shit .. hahaa... hmm .. den we went to this shopping centre called... tEska? something like tt lah... looked arnd .. din manage to buy any things.. n proceeded on to another shop for christmas decO.. sat there n discuss abit .. den bought some stuff bah. time was reaching 2 ..bern hadd to leave n i was deciding whether to leave for band or stay through out.. at nite they having seafood for dinner leh... very enticing to me.. but in e end i left wit berN .. at the malaysia customs there she lost her departure card.. den the ppl there veri wat lor .. scare her say MUST go police ... den in e end ... actually we can write another card de... -__________- darneddd them. den we walk up n dwn ..left n right to find the stupid container wich is the immigration office. she wrote a new card ..n we were cleared. heNgsssss. den cleared customs.. reached back Sg.. her fren msged her saying app cancelled. sian lor. at tt moment we both wanted to go bak malaysiA enjoy with the rest.. but .. thinking of the customs and all tt we haf to go thru .. sian la. den we go causeway point..she ta pao food hm .. while i bought some snacks.. n go hm le.. went home..slp for 1 hr... n went for band prac.. blehhh. i very bu gan yuan ... whole nite kept thinking of the sseafood.. den nv buy anything at all ... nv even spend any money at all... grr. anyway. but thanks to xavier for driving us arnd.. n kahyip for the bak kut teh treat. heh.
11:31 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
i just dont get it. why are some girls so iritatingly bitch n slutty ?? why are some guys so damn idiotically morons? well.. if there are no bitchy slutty girls... there wun b moronic stupid silly guys. am i right to say tT? yea. i'm a girl myself. but im nt afraid to admit tt girls are always the worse version compared to guys. i have tis fren ... he fell for tis attached girl. so maybe it wasnt the gurl's fault tt way ... but in a way ... noeing the girl was attached.. he still went out with her ... i dun mean tt they cant go out together ..but the girl is giving the guy wrong impressions lor. she's like treating him as a spare tyre. although i dont noe the girl at all .. ahvent seen her at all b4.. she's giving mi the impression tt she's a total horrible bitch .. she herself JOLLY WELL KNOES that SHE HERSElf is attached. yet she allows herself to get so close to u. i despise her totally lor. who is her real boyfriend anyway may i ask u? sorry to say tis fren.but im totally pissed with u n ur attitude towards stuff where it regards her. its so totally wrong. and u still dont get it. no u dont . u still continue with the wrong way. i just hate to see u sink further in. but u still are. do u noe how irritating it is ..when u treat me like such a good fren..calling mi ur buddy when she's nt arnd. and when u have her... when she's with u .. u don bother abt me... nt even caring to give a call to confirm anything or wat. its so damn FARKING irritating. and i've had enuff. seriously. i've had enuff. please. come to ur senses. stop fooling arnd with tt bitch, thinking u have a chance with her. sorry to call her tt. but i've long wanted to call her tt in ur presence. sad to say, i dint have the guts to do tt. wake up. stop wasting ur time and energy on her. its no use. cause in the end.. nothing wil come out of it. pls. do WAKE UP. come out of ur stupidity and sillyness. find a better girl. she sucks okay?
9:12 AM
