Tuesday, May 30, 2006
i want to cry.
vent it all out.
but.
i dont know how to.
1:04 AM
Friday, May 26, 2006
im so mad.
so pissed.
why?
all because of my stpid proj!
tt leader of mine.
is making me crazy! fed UP!
he jus sent us a database .
tell us to go acc to tt database do.
den nv xplain much.
den i open my database.
see my table.
i dun understand WHY THE HELL my table got some attributes wich i dun tink shld b in my table. even my fren said so.
wat the hell man.
wat the heck does he want .
he nv say clearly
and when i wanna ask him.
on msn.
he oni reply once.
den nv reply liaoz .
make mi wait n wait like a stupid idiot.
bevcause of tt i cant DO my part of the project.
like watthefuck can.
and den the dbConnection
he chose a difficult way to do it.
i see liao dun UNDERSTAND LOR.
please lah.
i noe u are clever.
but please .
tink of others can.
other pple who are not as clever as you in ur grp
spare a tot for them
why cant u use the simpler way
and even. the simpler way when wan to transform the proj into mobile application is EASIer.
but hell no.
he wan to use tt difficult way
fuck lah.
den jus nw lab.
he just went home halfway.
cus he done his part i tink.
wat abt his grp members?
does he give a tot to them?
no. FOOK la
was at a loss at what to do lah during lab.
and he has tis problem talking to girls.
he cant tok to girls.
as in.
from wat i observed.
when he ttoks to girls.
he will tok damn shitty fast n kanchiong-ly
den faster turn away.
or when some girlgo tok to him.
if the reply is some short one
he dun even dare to FACE the girl to reply her.
wattheheck right.
wats your problem lah!
u got problem is YOUR problem.
DUN PULL OTHER PPL DOWN CAN!
he's making me hate him more.
i feel like sTRANGLING HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT YOU!!!!!!!!
12:57 AM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
i feel so sad wen i go to ur blog to read ur entries.
it makes mi feel lik i duno u anymore.
since sec sch .
i still remember the days we 4 always were so crazy.
ppl always dint understand hw come we cld b so ..siaoz.
den it became 3 when 1 of us faded away .
we were like 3 muskeeters.
okay. mayb nt tt .
but i canot find a better phrase to describe.
we were SO CRAZY lah.
we can laugh..talk..abt anything.
we just did so many stupid things.
seriously. anything under the sun.
den she kinda faded away too .
but not as faded as the 1st one.
den .
i dunno what happened.
it seems like i dun noe u anymore .
u are always with them .
i feel so lost n hurt when i read abt hw u guys haf so much fun and all.
and now
we arent even on talking terms.
it hurts even more lah.
i dont noe if u will b reading this.
but i just wan let u noe that.
i really do miss u alot.
11:37 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
sch today was a total DRAg ..
slept at 1plus yest.
lied on my bed
but cannot fall asleep!!
onli manage to fall asleep at arnd 4 lidat.
wth right.
i totally HATE xml ...
practical always duno how to do ...
den always got tt stupid assignment...
den tt stupid database tutorial...
teacher always check check check ...
n i dun understand a single shit out of it..
seriously...this whole sem...
i dun understand a single shit of what im studying!!!
haiz.
after sch went to ps with andrew n nas ...
den met up with chloe sharon n calvin teo there ...
went to times to spend our time ...
n tt ANDREW...
started picking up sex books to read ..
not only that...
he read out LOUD!
how bad can tt be.
omg.
we stayd there for quite some time lah.
started reading chicken soup for the soul..
jus sat there on the floor to read... and one by one
all sit on the floor to read bks .. for arnd 1 hr or so..
den kiafang ..stef..benita n aini came ..
ate kfC ..
and went arnd walking..actually wanna shop for gab present?
but end up they all buying their own tings.. haha
ooh. and i wrote an application form for FOX ..
hope they reply me soon.
i really NEED a job.
xavier came later on ..
yah .. den all go carrefour buy sushi..
cus ... 10 for $2 !!!
haha
den all chiong sushi..
hmm. late liao ... go hme..
the rest took train while mi and aini took bus ..
didnt felt lik taking train la.. always so crowded.
while in the bus on the way home ...
listening to my mp3..
looking out at the windows..
suddenly i kept tinking of the pastt..
memories of last time came back...
felt so damn sad la.
i wanted to stop thinking abt it ..
but cant.
and
i dunno why i started to tear abit .
but luckily i managed to control
haiz.
stupid me.
1:05 AM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
shit man.
im so damn bloody sick.
keep coughing.
and my nose.
every 15 minutes must blow.
BLOW HARD.
thurs during sci lec i kept coughing non stop.
till i really wanna vomit out..
tink those ppl sitting bside mi were irritated by me
i tot i was going to die manz.
den aft lec..
i buay tahan liao
go hm see doc AGAIN.
tis time he gave me stronger antibotics..TWO cough medicines..
STRONGEr flu med.
the antibotics alone costed $23!!!! OMG.
ate liao.. ALL of them make me wanna sleep one lor!
den tis drowsiness is nt the normal kind.
is the kind tt make mi shiver tt kind,
aiya. also duno hw to xplain.
luckily fri gt mc.
or else. dunno hw to cope.
haiz
still coughing n blowing hard away.
when is this gonna stop.
tink tml cant go band again le.
shit man.
scared mrtan tink i purposely skiP baNd ..
ARGHhhhhs
12:15 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
i miss my lil cousin, QIQI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:19 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
oh.
and did i mention i saw stevenlim on wed nite at amk??
yes.
THAT stevenlim.
the never say die tt guy.
so yucky can.
he was giving flyers outside amk mrt station.
and it was to advertise himself..
asking ppl to go support him.
so OMG can.
yucks.
and i had to walk past him.
and he was wearing this singlet inside
and on the outside,
a off shoulder half tingy.
double yucks.
first time i see him so up close.
yewwwwwwwww.
3:19 PM
Friday, May 12, 2006
haiz.,
sick at home with nothing to do. maybe playing maple and sleeping every time i eat my medicine cus it makes mi so drowsy!
wed was xv de event...
went to the hospital in the morning lah.. tt stupid doc ...
the doc i always see is on mc for 2 months.. so they gave mi this docc...
who shld b a very reknown brain specialist... the nurses there said tt
ppl frm oversea fly over to see him... i was like.. wah.. at firs..
but when is my turn to see him ...
omg.
he makes mi so MAD can.
i mean.
please lah. its my own condition. since its my own condition..
who knows it better den me??
RIGHT ?
den the stupid doc keep turning what i say to what he tinks. shit him lah.
wat kind of brain specialist.
anyway. ate lunch at the hospital foodcourt with my mum b4 i went to sch .. jus in time for xv event ... basically nothing to do lar. cus its the ogl running it mah..
so excos jus overlook... went to walk arnd the sch with kiafang .. chloe n calvinteo.
den lik time pass so fast.
those ppl had debrief n all ..
den at nite we went for dinner at S-11..
together with benita n stef...
wasnt feeling veri well while on e way there.. felt like puking ..
n my throat felt abit sore.
den reach s11 liaoa duno wan to eat wat ..
den in the end i order chicken cutlet. stupid right.
anyway when the food arrived i felt better..managed to finish it.
so i guessed i was ok liao la.. left tt place at 11.30 pm..
reach hm at arnd 12plus..
dad was nagging .. but heck lah.
nx morning i woke up..
throat damn pain.. and i cldnt talk.
lost my voice lah.
and i had a running nose to add on.
but i told myself.. nvm .. still mus go sch .. cus of the life sci lecture ..
mus haf 95% leh...
mum kept asking mi to stay at hm n go see doc..but i dunwan..
den i brush teeth and all .. change liao ... wan to go out tt time..
had a sudden headache .. really headache.. kaoz.
den i changed my mind lor .
tell mum i nt going sch le.. den she gave mi money to see doc..
n i went bak to slp .. till 10plus i go see doc.. was staggering on the way to e clinic.
see liao..i go hm ..slp .. till mum came hm with porridge..ate liao .. went bak to slp ..
cus the flu med lah! eat liao shure make mi sleep.
slept till nite.. wake up.. ate dinner.. ate medicine..watch tv.. fell asleep in frnt of the tv.
-___________-
i am so weak.
den my mum woke mi up n ask mi go bak to bed to slp..
nx morning.. which is today lah..
i regained some of my voice le..
morning had brekfast.. ate medicine.. and slept...AGAIN.
arghs.
n i woke up ... din haf appetite to eat..
but mum force mi to eat some of the porridge she bought bak .. or else
i cnaot eat medicine ma. cus medicine mus b after food..
arghhsss.
i feel so lan lan now lah..
and i tink im having fever tooo .
my nose is so going to break lah.
so irritating.
hais
4:42 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
ok.
tml is xV event le .
going hospital for checkup tmL.
after tt goin bak to sch for maybe NE lec and xV.
my doc haf a 2mnth long MC ..
so tml another doc taking over.
hai.
stomach not feeling well now.
shit until my butt veri pain.
suX.
1:28 AM
Monday, May 08, 2006
hais.
recently like see so many couples get together.
duo duo shao shao also will feel abit envy ..
some of them like so sweet ..
and jus now jus watched tv..ch8 tt show.. women of all times ..
see the julian hee and felicia chin ... dey like so ... i dunno ... sweet lor.
cant help but smile as i watched it.
although i know its fictional lah.
haiz.
i noe ... guang kao envy shi mei you yong de ...
seeing them all get together makes mi wanna get a bf too ...
but ..
after all the bad experiences i had in the past...
i know i will never feel happy if i really am attached ..
even if i feel happy and all ... it will only last awhile ..
singlehood is the best for me i guess...
i'd rather keep my feelings for u in the dark...
den letting it all out ...
though it hurts at times wen u ignore me ...
unless..
a miracle appears ...
10:48 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
had 2 hrs of comm skills today lah..
actually the comm skills teacher nt bad one ... quite entertaining..
jus tt ... sumtime she TOO gei gao... make us so pekchek with her la.
den today aft commskill..went to clubrm but key was wit yankai ... he said he was at fJ..
so went dwn fJ to find him.. ended up finding chloe .. benita.. ridzman .. nicklaus n calvin teo there..
so jus sat there n watch them eat n toked abit ... den went to the booth..
was feeling hungry la... but fJ so mani ppl see liaox also siaN1/2...
so went to mac buy sandwich .. go booth there.. eat..
a few of us excos slacked there awhile b4 realizing tt we were taking up the oGLs space at the booth.. so we went up.. xtreme gt abit problem with the tee shirt ... haiz. dun wanna say abt it.
fedup lah.
but i see chloe even more fedup ..
i slept for awihle in the clubrm .. b4 going dwn for tennis with chermaine...
she was teaching me... and i was like .. finding it so hard to learn lors.. must straight .. must 90 degree all tt.. ahh! hahaha
how i wish i cld jus hit the ball.. hit hit hit.
den calvin teo came along n teach mi soome basic also ..
but he himself also duno how to play tennis one???
haha.
i tink he teach me until he pekchek also ..
merv and cher were playing singles.. den thomas came along too ..
den we 2 jus sort of practise at one side .. haha ..
den i did something funny without realising it lah.. i was trying to aim the ball lah..
den the ball jus got stuck in the hole in the tennis racket. and i didnt noe at firs..
i was wondering why both calvin n thomas were lik laughing so badly ..
n i was wondering where the hell the ball was... kept looking for it ..
den they tell mi its in the racket ..
-_______-
blehs.
den played awhile tennis b4 takin a break ... went upstair lv 6 awhile.. den came dwn again ..
sit gt bball match against seG..
wanted to watch.. but felt vri werid. .
so wen bak to the tennis court .. see them play.. den renli passed the racket to me..
so it was like mi n cher playing against kahyip's gf n her fren...
both PRO can ...
i was like ... CMI...
but they are both veri nice ppl lah.
played awhile. .den cher n caroline played singles...
n her fren..lynette taught mi some stuffs like serving .. haha.
managed to get tt right.
i think.
hee.
the racket is sodamn heavy.
my right hand is lik so shaky and unbalance aft playing ..
lik kip shivering ... den i canot hold ting properly ..
after wich went to S-11 to eat with them..
had difficulty eating la.
cus right hand hold spoon right ..
totally du nhaf strength lor.
luckily nt holding chopstick.
or else duno where it fly to liao..
aft eating jus sat there tok awhile..
den we went hm..
took train with weishan.cher and kenneth ..
den cher n kenneth alighted at admiralty while
weishan alighted at yew tee.
i alighted at btbatok took 947 lar.
so tired.
1:18 AM
Friday, May 05, 2006
time check: 12.47 AM.
woke up in the morning punctually lah. haha. watever u define 'punctual'.
was so sososososososososoSO tired caNz... but bo bian...
haf tt idiotc sci lec which i canot misS cus of the 95% thingy..
was brushing my teeth halfway den i remembered zhiliang telling mi las wk tt tis wk no sci lec??
but i duno i was dreaming tt he told me or tt is real... den i sms ed him ..
and he was like.. ya hor... hahahaha. so NO sci lec... which meant tt i cld slp longer.. till 12 !
cus lessons start at 2pm ... heh heh heh. LUCKILY i remembered.. or else i wld had to rot in sch for dunno how many freaking hours.. zhiliang also forgotten abt it .. hahhaz.
anyway.. slept till 11plus .. den woke up n made tomyum cup noodles for lunch .. ate and went to sch .. took train ... den see the time liaoz like wanna late le ... cus i having the eunice quiz at 2pm .. so i hurriedly alighted at woodlands to take ccab... thinking there will be lots of cab at the taxi stand located at the mrt station there.. but when i reach there... OMG! there queue so many ppl waiting for cab lo.. i was like .. shit. so i walked to causeway point de taxi stand.. also alot ppl !!! arghs..tt time i veri kanchiong liao.. cus i din wan to miss the test..den i was tinking .. mayb the civic center opp haf .. so i went there in search of cab... finally found... waited for like 10 mins den haf... but luckily haf lah. so go sch... reached sch..late for 10 mins ..but the test haven start.. the teacher do tutorial firs den do test.. the test.. kaoz. although is fill in the blank.. and 11 question onli .. AND sharon gave mi tips las nite... i still duno hw to do most of them la. sadist right. cus i dint relly study.. was doing my cover letter n resume las nite.. den onli tried to study in the train n cab lar. haiz. aft the test ... did our prac.. den was the SAME teacher's lab again... proj module ... talked abit of the proj with our team members... den did our own ting liaox.. nx wk mus present our ideas.. haIYaH!! was so damn hungry lor...
aft tt went clubrm ... sit arnd awhile .. den went j8 for dinner with sharon ... on e way there.. met weishan .. nicklaus n vincent plus some other ogls at the train station.. so asked them to join us.. cus... haha. sharon noes the answer. some of the ogls had stuffs to do .. so onli weishan vincent plus nicklaus joined us for dinner. ate longjohn! haha! cus i had such a huge craving for it. talked alot there lah... and tt weishan ... realy can talk alot nonsense ..making everyone luff.. n nicklaus was looking damn bored.. n vincent was lik halfway here halfway there.. haha. aft eating .. went to walk arnd ... omg ... weishan is likk deamn rich can. wan to buy this .. wan to buy tt... alamaks. anyway i went to minitoons .. bought a jigsaw plus frame.. and another baby EEYORE! hhahaha. tt adds to my collection. hEeeE. went to the pasa malam awhile.. n i left firs.. cus geting quite late le .. so off i went home in the train. im still looking for my wallet. and im still waiting for my pay !! tml's friday.. 2 hrs of comm skills + sports day.. another day gone...
time check: 1.04 AM
12:48 AM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
alot tings happen during the wkend la.
but .
dun wan to say lah.
haiz. yesterday was a public holiday.. labour day .. yeah ..
my bro was performing at istana... my bro = my pri sch band.
initially i didnt wan to go .. but in the end i went ...
saw the performance la.
gt some peps band grads also playing ...
looking at them perform .. i imagined myself ... last time ... sitting there playing also ... nt at istana itself lah but also performing as a peps band member.. tt was lik so long ago.. hais. and SO much has happened since.
learnt frm ding tt he's nt going band to youth anymore, cuz tan said tt his sound will affect the balance of e band..so he's nt goin bak ... xcept for main... haiz. den i gt one less khaki to talk to during band practises..wich is so damn bored.
today in school.. i was so damn freaking tired. maybe its the cause of the lack of slp, i dont noe..
morning first lesson lab.. i was practically half asleep and half awake.. break time met felicia and the rest for lunch at fJ ... ate yong tau hu but was still feeling hungry. had lecture.. and i practically fell asleep the moment i sat on the chair. slept thru out the whole lecture. like what the hell. aft tt was lab ? tired too .. sleepy... haiz. enduring 2 hrs of lab.. was 1 hr of break ... so i went bak to clubrm for a short nap .. den went for tutorial .. tt teacher..recognize me siaz. in class kip calling me. he duno my name at firs, den ask mi to ans question tt time say 'wat abt u?? the member of the club?? ' like.. duh?! haiz. die liao lor. nx time his lessons he sure come find me answer alot questions. lab tt time also lidat. come over ask mi our club gt wat events coming. hahaha. but he quite funny la. aft his tutorial was end of sch, thank goodness. i was staarving. clubrm no pple, the teacher wanted to return the duster n marker he borrowed, key was with andrew, so i called him up for it. haha. and he took blardy long. =wanted to go hm liaoz aft putting bak the stuffs, yankai n andrew acc mi walk to atrium.. den i reached the shelter area aft the fountain.. was abt to take out my phone to call ps ask her wan to mit for dinner anot... den sharon called.. ask mi whether wan to haf dinner .. where am i .. .hahahaha. so i walked bak to sch n waited for her.. anyway i didnt feel lik going hm so early yet. waited awhile, den had dinner with sharon, nas, aini and drew in mac. we ate sandwiches la. but oni sharon, me and drew ate. the other 2 jus look at us eat. haha. den came the funny part when they all started talking abt their funny encounters in buses.. n den we all came up with funny funny stuffs...hhahahahahahah. damn funny lah can. the whole mac lik machiam lik our hse.. we jus laughed lik no one's business.. den we left while andrew went bak clubrm ... slept in the train. blehsx. bought some fruits hm to eat.. haf to do my resume now!! thurs wanna hand in le. ... sumore tomolo mus stdy test... but... im rely damn tired nw .... haiz.
11:11 PM
