Monday, February 28, 2005
wen sch .. had maths lect .. dcn quiz.. n checked my results.. C 5. ... good or bad ? i dunnoe. shld i change coursE? i dunno. bAh
8:34 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
DEPRESSION
6:17 PM
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
maths tutor told us jus nw tt the o level result wld b out on monday. tadah. am i nervous, sad, or wat ? i seeriously dunoe . if i realy got a better resulT ... shld i change courses ? i've been considering tat for a veri long time ... but jus haf to courage to really think hard abt it. but nw tt the results gonna b out soon.. guess i'll jus haf to face it.. yeh ? last time i told myself tat if my exam results came out fine i wld continue .. but tinkin bak ... sem 1's work is so damn easy compared to what we r studyin nw in sem2.. i wld b an idiot to fail my sem1 work ..n it seems tt im gonna fail my sem2 work .. .haiz. yest during dcn tutorial ... my whole mind was fiLLed with ideas on if i shld change courses .. the pros n cons of it .. if i changed courses... i wld haf to start frm yr 1 again... make new frens again .. n if i were to change to another poly .. i wld haf to start getting used to the environment once again.. and even if i changed courses... most imptly.. wld i b able to cope better than now in IT?? i've always wanted to b in accounts/ business courses ... at least they are all in perfect ENGLiSH... unlike java... vb ...godnoeswhatsnext. blah. hais. its such a tough decision ..
monday faster come ... so tat i can noe my eng results ...
1:40 AM
Monday, February 21, 2005
out of boredom.. as i was going thru my friendster frens ... lookin thru their profiles n photos.. i suddenly felt lik i was missing out on something .. just felt a pang of shot in my heart. like a thud. it was then i realized i missed my secondary sch frens so much. no doubt we still keep in contact.. so what? its so damn seldom..i miss the times we quarreled.. copied each other's work during tests .. studyin togethe.. eating together .. going shopping .. being scolded together .. going for band practices.. rushing for hw .. toking during lessons... hiding in e toilet frm mr chan's lesson... laughing away loudly for lame reasons.. gossiping abt everyting.. all those wonderful stuff we did together .. of cus there were sum unpleasant stuffs .. but it always went away quickly .. i really miss them... i really do .. amanda ..peisean...bunchin..limay..huiping...jane..zhiting...kaiyan.. everyone of u.. i know tat each of us has separated to diff places... our times doesnt match.. poly aint wonderful for mi ... i find it so difficult to fit in there.. with the others .. lookin thru my frens' profiles n pics really made mi realize how much i really missed them and the days we spent together. i'm really sick n tired of the life im living now .. being treated like a nobody at times.. in a blank of what the teacher's saying ... lookin at alien languages...i dun noe where i'm going to .. where im aimin at ... i feel so lost now. how i wish i cld turn back time ...go bak to the good old days where its so carefree... can anyone even understand ??
12:13 AM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
hugga. yesterday wen out almost e whole day ...woke up earli n wen out to bugis to meet dear... i was very late. hgaha...oops. aniway we went to eastpoint de pet safari ... wanting to get the bird cage for e parrot..but dun haf..so in e end wen bak to jurong de one of the bird shop buy... got le...n we wen woodlands to mit the person get the parrot .. the parrot sooo cute n nice.. wen home n transferred the parrot in to the caGe ... at firs it kept flyin all over e place ... haha...its bright yellow in color... with sum greenish n blackish parts.. but my parents dun let mi kip... wed bringin it over to amanda's grandpa's hse... he help to look after..haisss... the bird's name is... tweety.. ! cus of sum funny stuff..hahahaz. lazy to type it in here ... at nite aunt may they all came my hse for dinner.. had craabs...yum yum. =p after dinner wen wm to watch hidee n seeek... im having band later... den go aunt catherine's place for dinner celebrate darren's birthday..... haiizzz... tml ish anothEr sch dae... sianzz
12:10 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
sum tings just cant b said out loud. hai.
so .
duh.
dunch noe why this few days ive been eating a lot .. n i feel fatter. oh please no. i dun wan to go fat again...haisssssss. can sumone pls give mi a fever. so i can stay at home n sleep . n b coaxed. bLEhss. my room's in such a mess.. since... wat ... las yr ?? duh. received a letter from MOE sayin to go to a webby to collect my results.. but nv sae when. shittys. shld i change course if i get better results ?? im so sick of IT.. everyting is like alien language to me .. n i'm like ... shit in there. blah. going for band later .. tml is a friday.!! yeaH .. time passes so fast.. exams nearing soon... projects undone .. what shall i do ?
6:29 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
past few days had been at my uncle's place.. frm fri till sun morning .. sat nite he had a bbQ n dear came alOng.. today's valentines day.. n he's in camp. bleh. but i dun c the importance of valentines day actually. i tink its jus a extra day sum kpo made up to make us all frantic n blah. everyday can b valentine's day if they really care n bother. jus lik mothers day n fathers day. u dun haf to b especially nice to ur parents onli on mother's/father's day ... right ? today wen to schOol initially for whole day ... den mornng remembered tt there was no tutorial for datacomm ... n when i was in e train with rickson .. he showed mi the java bk wich said eLec for java today .. so ... blah? we were gonna haf maths for 2 hrs till 2pm den break till 6.30 for nite lesson ? sumore the others nt going .. all going to celebrate wit their bfs .. so might as well dun go le .. meaningless... wanted to help them sell roses but in e end wen out wit tbc ... firs go beach rd ... saw the converse sneakers!!!! HIGH CUT one!!!! n its genuine ... selling at onli wat... $39 bucks ?? shit man ...... !!! arghhhsSS!!!!!! there was a high cut one sitting on the table .. exactly the same design as the one i bought... ahhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHhhH!!!!!! called my mum to complain ... n she said tt if i wan to buy high cut one den buy lor... but nv c any design i lik leis... hais. nx time wanna buy converse shoe.. go there buy .!!! n the converse velcro shoe onli $19 .... ! siao leis... anyway bought 2 tshirts .. den we wen pz to play pool ... until 10plus.. walked to city hall mrt frm there n wen home le ... haiss...tml theres no marketing lesson and no 1202 lecture in e morning ... which means i onli nit to go sch for 4-6pm lab ..see the GAY .... n thats the end.. afterwhich i will nit to go for band prac? shit lors .. so mani lesson dun haf... might as well return us our term break for this week ...... ! its nt fAir.!
12:41 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
yesterdae 2nd day of new yr... morning wen to bernard's hse ... so darn bored dere ... sit there.. watchin the kids play... my uncle suaning mi ... pretending im interested in e tv program ... n listening to my mums n aunties n tt relative tok ... so messy.. worse than in a market.. haha !! den we all wen to marine parade de hawker centre had lunch... n proceeded to another relative's place ..she stay at Queens. tt condo de view very nice lor .. n at least there had a baby to play wit.. so cute.. follow mi sit on e sofa.. haha ... left after a while.. n we all went our separate ways. ... wen to wm to watch i do ido with my parents n bro .. the show damn funny ! hahas... later on .. wen to jE for dinner .. and wen hm le.. haizo...later goin uncle maX place .. help him prepare bbQ stuff n stay over at his place.. hehs ..
1:09 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
first day of new year. duh.
woke up at 11 plus ... one of my relative came when i was sleeping..hah. n was gone b4 i was awake.. had lunch and waited for 2 more of my relatives to come ... they came n had lunch at my place ... n sat for awhile ... among them had 4 cousins ... normally i dun tok much to them also... so mainly jus hid in my rm.. xcept for 1 ..she came to my rm .. toked to mi for awhile n went outside to watch tv. such a boring day ... hid myself in the room for almost e whole day to play neopets. nth to do ... kept finding food to eat... tried all e titbits my mum bought. ate seaweed. potato chips. im gonna get fat. blah. come 4plus... aunty catherine came with darren n sheryl tog4ether with uncle leong.. haha. finally gt entertainment. played with sheryl n darren... darren had mi entertained....they stayed all e way till 8plus..cus uncle leong wanted to watch socceR ... haha.. den ky n dear came to mit mi n we wen to their place. -_- they were waiting outside while i was bathing. tot they wld cum in. .-.
went for movie at 11.30.. watched seoul raiders with his cousins ..overall fuNNi lo.. n came hme le .. tml morning going beRnard's hse .. can predict tt its gonna b another borinG dayy...
1:46 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
so sianzzzzz. morning woke up ... was soo tired.. den wen to temple to pay my respects ... slept in e car all e way.. aft tt .. wen to great world city for lunch with parents , bro , aunty may n xueheng.. had kfC. blehs. looks lik these few days haf to haf junk fOOd. sure fat one . saw su lao shi !!!!!!! with her husband n baby.. haha.. de baby so chubby n cute. 14 months old.. lik so fast...haiz.. old liao. when to this shop at great world.. selling clothes de.. veri big... bought a 3/4 pants there.. ha. finally. saw cassandra see there with her kId .. my mum spotted her firs ... -_-
came home tt time wen to westmall there .. rented 2 dvdss come hm watch.. had dinner n nw im rotting here. feel lik going out yet dun feel like.
sianz.
10:01 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
HAIS. this yr really damn suay arhs... today morning woke up at 12plus .. went jp to mit ps do sum shopping?? but i din get anything in e end. arGhs. wanted to buy tis sandals .. spent very long choosing... but in e end... dun haf my size. argghs. den culdnt find any bottoms i liked too.. ps went to trim her eyebrow at jean yip ... n the person hu helped her trim eyebrow tot tt i was her bf!!! hahaha . aft tt arnd evening time ..ps went bak to sch for her rugby training .. i took 198 with her ... den suddenly tot of goin clementi.. so went there alone ... go SnK find bottoms .. found 2 nt bad .. but gt 1 tiff gt le .. so dun wanna... de other one ... wear liao lik nt bad .. awhile later.. feel tt abit weird.. no one with mi to gib mi comments too ... so nv buy .. scared buy liaoz regret.. haiz. suay lor. shit lor. no mood le .. went home .. blah. sux man..
10:02 PM
yet another day has passed...
went for breakfast in e morning ..
afternoon band.. im confirmed in the concert list le ..
so cant slack anymore le ... and the comworks too ..
tink mus go for every tues n thurs..
meanin every wk i'm havin prac for 3 days..
here comes the tiring days again ..
guess i'll haf to ren again... comworks is on 12 n 13 march ...
youth de concert nt confirmed yet..
haiz.
aft band went for reunion dinner with sheryl they all ... at allson hotel de restaurant ...
uncle max's fren's dad's restaurant.. so.. haha.. go thre gt special treatment .. the food there nt baD .. gt buddha jump over e wall ... tasted nice... the 3 guy cousins. (my bro.. xueheng..darren..) wore e same blue incredibles shirt today .. haha .. den they 3 sit together..looked so cute n funny. =x
eat till sooo fuLL... tml term break... wah laoz... not happy lei ... our term break is next wk wan .. brought forwardd to tis wk... sianz lor .. its nt fair.,. they cheat us of our break... even my parents and uncle they all said nt fair jus nw ... haaha.. ! tml im goin to buy another pair of jeans .. hope can find one i likE bah ..
1:58 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
just now went to queensway to buy my converse shoe ... finally bought it ... but is nt high cut de .. = ( grey n blue coLor.. cus i tink i cldnt make up my mind wich high cut to buy ... cus nt all i really lik .. den my mum told mi to buy the low one firs ... nxt time they haf the high one tt i lik den buy .. suddenLy so gd right. haha. queensway today soo mani ppl ... had a hardtime walking ... see liao also sianz..wanted to buy jeans also so manii ppl.. cant even squeeze into the shop ... i dun care. monday i wanna go bak there see jeans!!!! saw dennis there.. haha... so qiao.. he nt workin at edo le .. sad. den later tt dad came to fetch us and we went bt timah plaza de ntuc to buy new yr sTuff... bought alot of stuff... went to rent dvd to watch ..Le Divorce.. quite nicE .. haiz. i jus realized tt i haven really buy my clothes yet. sian le lor... monday mus chiong go n buy .. haiz.... tis yr de new yr like shuo lai jiu lai.. nv gif anyone any preparation or wat.. lik so sudden lor .. i also feel sianz. lazy to prepare or do anytink abt it too .. haah. every new yr is soo borIng.. xcept the hong baos paRt i guEss... bLehs.
1:22 AM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
hate it. HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
2:51 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
just now came home watched the 9pm shows i recorded since last fRi... a surge of feelings went passed mi as i watched the show. i noe it may seem stupid since its jus a drama serial... but ..i really salute..envy the 2 gurls in the show to haf such a strong frendship... willing to sacrifice everyting..for the happiness of the other party.. it's just so .. touching lor.. i oso dunno how to xpress hw im feelin inside of mi right now ... im nt gd at expressing myself anyway.. to b able to haf such a gud and i really mean TAT gud a frend.. is really .... best lor i guess. jus cant seem to find the right word to describe..sumtimes one may tink tt they haf alot of frens arnd them ... all scattered arnd ... but its onli when u r in a difficulty tt when u see wHU is ur true onEs .. i tink sumhow .. frens matter much more than others.. argHs. sorri to sae tis ..it may b selfisH .. but ..=\ i jus feel tt sumting is buried deep inside my heart. n its getting heavier each dae. but i dunno wat it is. ARGHS.
hate myself.
10:35 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
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managed to wake up just in time in the morning for sch at 7.30 .. rushed off to e train station to mit ricksoN ... and went for AMS's lesson. was late for 10 mins... bLehs. she wasnt being her strict self today... lik ... making lots of lame stupid coLd jokes wich none of us appreciates... hah. and playing lame games ... aft lesson she asked to see us.. as in ... our grp. she asked if we had any conflict while doin the report? siao one. brought my guitar to sch today to let arthur see its condition..cus wanna seLL ma... den arthur test here n there .. he sae can feTch 60 bucks aft sum bargaining.. bleHs. den lik tt lor. 60 bucks. but i cant take e money.. mus return my mum. so saD. i wanna buy my converse shoes! aft tt .. wen to taka to find tbC ... on e way in wisma .. went to ebase to look at their new arrivals .. gt sum bottoms lik quite nice lei .. but 55 bucks... lik a bit exp horh. hais . den found tbc at his cashier counter ... initially wen bhind his counter sit ... but his supervisor came n shoo-ed mi away . n i sat outside at e bench there.. for arnd 2 freaking hrs waitin for him.!!!!!!!!!!! i rather haf went hm to SLEEP instead. and we went for lunch.. at cine .. together with his colleague .. den we 2 go heeren for awhile..bought 2 ear stuDs.. n wen bak to taka .. used the voucher ... bought a OP 3/4 pantS. after which .. he wen bak to work and i wen bak to sch to mit rickson n edwin..took train n went hoME. came home ... slpt. woke up and ate the porridge my dad cookeD. felt lik vomitting. bleHs. he tinks ALL the food he cooks is sooo nice. but he's so wRONG. not all are nice. sum tastes so yuCky. arGhs. tmL gt jaVA tEst lei. dun feel like studying...........
10:11 PM
its 3.45 am. im finally done with the shitty comm skills report. haf less den 4 hrs slp more for mi . till i see that dreadfUl ANG MUI SING tml. hiakz. i dun care if she's gonna nag again for tt report . good or bad. i've done my best. shitty. comm skills 2 sux
3:45 AM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
monday blues.
i attended all lessons todae! right until 8.30 when the lecture ended.. haha.. well .. the lecturer let us go off early at arnd 8 todae. ... =arghs .... still gt marketing haven done .. and the comm skills report!!! stuck. hais.
sumone...
help me~
tml got asp. net practical test... pui pui pui
1:09 AM
