its just ... xy

Thursday, July 29, 2004
yoyoyo! im bAck. hmmz. tis few days been kinda busy ba..tts why i din bLog .. =\ tues wen for youth prac. im playing 2nd for the concert? tts ok . duh. but kinda disappointed. haiz. and im gonna play with tt .... %$%&^% i cant sae WHU. cuz sum tings are meant to b kept a seCret. was soo tireD. den went bak hm and i din go sch on wed, paartly cuz i din feel lik it .. and also cuz i wasnt feeling quite well . so woke up in e morning and slept till 2plus b4 waking up to go c doc for my mc. den lik tt lor. today i went to sCh. had presentation n java quiz. kaoz. the javfa quiz.. tink im gona fLunk it le lor. i dun undstand a single ting ?! bLEh. haIz. aft sch i met manda ..and i finally met the well-known wilbur. hahahahaz. he relly damn caRtoon. we 2 wen jP..saw alot huayians. plus saw carin ..ah ma..eeling..bah. i bought 2 tops ! one frm pmk and one frm gio.heez. finally. hmmsz. tink i gonna sign out ler. tata! nitee

11:11 PM


Monday, July 26, 2004
ehh!! i cut my hair liaoz!
hAIz. dunno ish good or bad lehz..
juz nw aft sch went to two way to cut
de...limay pei wo qu... =] initially
cut le gt tt boi look. but the more i
look at myself..the more i find tt the
boi look is nt there anymore! gRrz.
den aft i washed my hair.. my side partin
lik bcum messi...haiz. den duno nice or nt
leh. boohoo. today's lessons were alrigHt.
xcept when it came to essit .. we din noe
whether to go to e plaza or stay in de
tutorial rm..den we stay in tutorial rm
lor. but hu noes.. iz shld b at elearning
plaza..den juz nw during break damn funni lor.
made alot stupid jokes. hehz. den wait till 3plus
lik tt ..den thhe teacher came up. sae she was
at elearnin plaza waitin for us. blehzx.
aniway she let us off ... =\
im tired. nx week gt work . mon n wed.
tml gt youth band ..wit the seniors
again...argX. wonder hw im gonna survive..

10:35 PM


Sunday, July 25, 2004
hA.hA.ha! buY my laptop le~~ thE acer
xtErnAL cD drIve dE.. gT fREe lAPtop bAg..
tHUmbdRve n wIreLess mOUsE...hEEz~
juz nw aft youtH prAc go westmAll
meet mi parents ... deN saW aHma n
hEr fAMilY.. wAhz weStmAll todae dAmn
mAni pPle lor. cUx of f.I.r. i wAs likE
sQueEzing mY wAy thru ..tt tiNg wrIte 7pM..
bUt tiLl 7.30 dEY stIll nT aRrived. hAa.
anYway i diN stAy lA. nT intEreSteD .!
todaY bAnD prAc waS aLrIghT bA . sIghT reAd 3
sONgs..buT gt 1 is plAy b4 loNG time agO ..
mR faHmi coNductEd tHE whoLE Way ..bleHz
jUx now rEALised i wuN b pErfoRmiNg fOr tHe
natiOnal dAy dE .. cUZ i gOIn bINtAn!! heEx..
hAIz . deN tHe fAHmi gT saE waT sUm chosEn tO Play
wIth mAin bAnd in e coNcerT suM not..siA la.
deN hE saE cLArinet i tInk wHOLE sEctiOn or sUmtINg..?
bUT dEn juZ nW hE sAE gT rE-sELeCTion..AIyo. dunoe lah..
sO coNfusiNg.. dEN tIs tUEs nitE nIt tO gO bAnd cOmbinE
wiTh dE mAIn aGain... tIrinG leHz ..


10:35 PM


Saturday, July 24, 2004
hMM! today i had work ! frm 12- 4 ...
blehz...woke up at 10 lik tt...
my dad lor. forever lik tt de..
but its a gd ting he wake mi up toO. =\
den quikly ate my brekfast and went for
work ... my dad sent mi to je mrt
station todae onli instead of all
the way to chinatown point .. cuz
my dad side de relatives frm china
cum to visit us .. i oso firs time
hear tt my dad side gt relatibe in
china ehz...n i tot initially aft work
can go funan buy my laptop de. business
was real slack todae..morning onli work
500 plus nia. den juz nw .. heard ah wai
scolding pauL in e kitchen.. biangs. he looked
n sounded so damn angry lors.. vulgar also cum
out..i hear liao oso scared scared... aniway aft woRk
i went hm lor . gt the 2 visitors. one old
de n one young one. the relationship damn
complicated leh..i oso duno how to sae. anyway
we wen for dinner at bb west..dey wanted to try
local delights. go the coffeeshop order
zi cha. den dey oso got order popiah..rojak..
ngoh hiang...hookien prawn noodles..siaoz eh.
the food so much on the table. i see liao also
full le. =X i din eat rice lor. juz eat the
dishes... so much leh. all non finished too.
bleHz. den they bought durians ...go the duno hu's
hse to eAt... den juz nw .. mi n my parents go
westmall c the laptop.. gt one acEr de..
1.7 kG onli .. lik nt baD. .but the ting is ..
xternal cdrom drive. siANx. lik so mahfan.
but tt person sae tt modeL gD. sumor its nt
so big. i tink i gettin tt bah. maybe tmL..aft band..
nt sure yEt.. sIghs.

11:18 PM


aei aei aei ! today had maths quiz ... at firs i tot i wld fail ...but it seems lik i can pass ba ... onli gt 3 ques...and quite eaasy leh..heez. juz nw aft lessons almost half of e clss wen to fJ to eat ..gt sum wanna wait for cca ma..den i waited together lor .. cuz meeting ky n zt at causeway at 6 for the british council lesson ... den in e end ... all eat le go hm ..left mi ..tiff ..fad n leon ..go shelter there sit...tok tok lor .. hahaz .. awhile later tiff's fren join us .. den ky called mi ..she was cumin to nyp to find yurihan..den go meet her lor.and we went to causeway to meet zT... ate mos burger dere..and went for lessons.. damn tired lor ..haizz. tml im workin too ... tml my dad side de chinarelatives cuming ... i never heard of them b4 till todae.. hAhaz. too bad cantsee em.. gonna cut my hair soon !! heEez.  

1:37 AM


Wednesday, July 21, 2004
eheh! i dunno why my entries gt all those spacing leh...hiakz. today damn suay lor ... actually gt lab lesson at 11.10 ... arranged to meet xueting they all at 1045 ..but in e end.. i woke up at11!?!?!?!?!?!  den i at aloss... duno if i shld go to sch ... in e end gt go ... take cab... amounted to $12.60 !! biangs ..heng when i reach ... the teavher marked my attendance ... wheehs. heng lo., at least nt wasted ... den aft lesson which ended at 1250 ... had lunch at sch wit liting n garyt..den we do our project ... till 3... den i went plaza singapura alone ... go service my fone ... de LCD no light .. a few weeks le .. den bought this animal square tshirt. heez. and went home...go westmall buy smth n saw jiahui.. kekez... tml gt lesson at 9 arHz. boooooooo  

10:54 PM


my new template!!! nice ?!?!? haaha

8:51 PM


Tuesday, July 20, 2004
wah liaoz ! juz now i wrote the long entry! duno why gone! stupiD!!!!!

11:34 PM


Friday, July 16, 2004

weEeHaha. dint go for british council todae ... =Xx  juz nw monring had 2lectures actually. but alot of us din go. juz scan card n went off. felt kindA guIlty. kEpt tinking of it... cANnot always lik tt la. once in awhile still ok lor. cuz all of us were lik so tired n blah. anyway the lectures were javA n duno wat. blEhz. den the guys went to the lib. we gurls wen aMk play pool. finally. i mastered the art of playing pool.. hahaz. sae till lik tt. mi n liting were learning hw to play.at least gt result. den at arnd 1plus go bak to sch for maths tutorial...was rainin heavily. awhile onli lar. we were late for tutorial lor .. initially the tutor dun wanna mark our attendance .. but we bargained with her..den..ok le .. kaoz eh. hate one of my clsmate. really hate tt person. see him feel lik boxiNg!!!!! aRghz. !!!!


10:53 PM


Thursday, July 15, 2004
hMmz! tody waS a bLast at scH. nt totally..but..at least..bEtteR? hahahaz. morning we had programming ..lab n tutorialZ. lab ended early..den a whole bunch of us wen to the shoppin arcade and bought alot of food. frm sweets to chocolates to potato chips!!!! hAhaz. nxT period was maths lecture for onew hr ma. den all of us lik so damn huNGry. aCtually wanted to buy chocs onli.. den dunno hw cum .. the guys ended up buying potato chipS as wEll. hAhax. deN in the LT...we were the noisiest bUnch lOr. munch n luff. kaoz eh. nxt week gt maths qUiz. and i still duno the binary stUffs. keep getting miXEd uP. mUx reALly sTUdy le. deN juz nw one hr luNCh time..we ta pao mAc gO sports hAll outside eaT. den went in to find the guys..play abit badmintoN. aRthur brought his racket along todae..he today weAr haT..look lik fisHErmAn sIaz. hahaz. so daRneD funnI. den go the jaVa tt tutorial. kAoz eH. tt teACher damn suck man. totally hate her. she lik dunno how to teaCh dE lOr. shE tok to us lik no one cARe. even if we wan to caRe also duno wat thE hELl she sAying. arGhx. i reAlly sCAred fAIl my yR 1 mAn. ! hAiyaAh.!!!!! aNiway. jUx nw programmin tutorial .. did sum presentations .nT mi. haaz. den dismiss at 4.30.. wen to aMk de pool play.. i din play la. duno hw tO plAy. xUEting taUght mI. bUd stiLl duN dare tO plAy. hAhaza. leFt at 6 ... im gOnnA dO mY hw nOw... dUhZz~

-lack of slp-

10:07 PM


Wednesday, July 14, 2004
aHh. went for vB tryouts today with manda...went there liao immediately we both regretted. haha.dunno why leh. we tot of running away..but the person already tick our name... so..juz went on with it.. did warmups ..den the person told us tt they wanted to chose sum ppl for their comp in auG..anyway dey separated the xperience n non-xperience de. den we non-xperince de...the seniors teach lor. one senior to two. tt senior hu taught mi n manda very nice lor. she's in BIT. hee. anyway juz pLayed le.. den they said sumting aft gatherin everyone..den can go hm le. arnd 7.30 lidat go hm le..fASt eh. anyway i decided. im nt gonna join vb. its so totally nt my style lor. nt used to it baa. really felt so regret juz nw. haha. i meaN... juz lik tt playplay for fun is nice lor. but ask mi to join cca ...abit funni. im gonna stick to band... =]

11:01 PM


i really feel so sucky lor. DAMN sucky. had youth prac tonite? but is combined with the seniors one..n i felt so. uRGh.at first mi n tbc met to go together de .. den reach there... realize we r lik..juz in the nick of time bA? there were 3 claR seniors today. mr fahmi.. one woman and another gUy. fahmi n tt woman play 1sT.pLus diNg. 3 liao rite. too mani. so i play 2nD lor. nvm, den tt other senior guy also play 2nd. den 2nd was lik .. mi ..wilson..eliz n tt guy. he kept shaking so hard while playing. den 3rd was pat and tt new guy frm pasir ris seC las time. i dunno wat the hells wrong with mi. i couldnt even pLay properly. is my sight reading relly tt bAd? den music for feSTivAl.. 2nd de part really damn diff frm 1st de loR. dEn ding sit bside mi ..i listen liao also feel vEri weird why i playin diff frm him. dEn its lik alot parts i misseD oUt. miss coUnt..den to make matters worsE..tt woman change place with ding. meaning she sat bside mi. ogosh. tt made mi more panicky. she was lik observin mi lik tt lor. wafuck lor. cden i todae tuning note also canot tune prooperly. so damn frEaking sHaRp. juz wat the HELL WAS I DOING!? i shouldnt have gone for the stupID prac. arGHZ. i juz felt so disgrACed. felt so down. i wanted to leave rite away. felt so useles.. a complete FAILURE. guess nw they mUx tink hw bAd i am. wTF lOr. I JUST DUN GET IT.! i couldnt play well. wat shit.??? ARGH! 9 yrs of playing the stupid clarinet. tis is my 10th yR. and im still getting shitty resultS lik just now? CHAN XIN YI. u suck. BIG TIME. whEN wiLL u eVEr wAKe uP!?

i just feel lik crying. aRhgz.

12:30 AM


Saturday, July 10, 2004
kaoz. i feel veri fuck up liao LOR.

1:26 PM


Friday, July 09, 2004
hAIz. one wEek oF lEsson ovEr liAoz. hOw dO i tINk oF iT ? hMz. okie bA? lecTurEs n tUtOriaLs n laBs... thOu prOgRammIn DO reALli sUx abIt. bUT i rEally hOPe cAn gET thE hANg oF it bAHhz..theSe feW days kEPt eaTing aT fOod jUnctiOn .. dUhh~ ouR cLass gETtiNg morE n mOre uNITed le...mOre fRendLy bA. gD rIteZ!? hAHahaz. feElIng hAPpieR aS dAYs gO bY..enDeD at 3 toidAe... tHEy sAE wANa gO plAy poOl.. bUT tOniTe i hAf bC leSson.. sO cANt loR. cUz the fIle aT hmE.. stIll hAfta gO hmE taKe. dUh..im hAVing a tERribLe sTOmacHacH! cAN i duN gO fOR bC lessOn? =[

5:25 PM


Wednesday, July 07, 2004
sianz sia..
todae went to sch for lik 1.5 hrs of lesson onli .. actually was 11-1 de.. met manda on e train ..hhaz den she pei mi go my blK therEz.. i was late le so asked xueting they all to go firs wifout mi..today was programming? kAoz eh .. reaLly. bWg. de teacher tok until lik..make us tink she is the fierce tyPez.. den did sum java tings. den can go le. duI. waited fer manda while eaTiNg ... den bought heR books? n went hm le.. soo tired... slEpt in e afternoon juz nw.. tml's gonna b a loong day... >.<

10:50 PM


Tuesday, July 06, 2004
hMMz. i wanna write abt my firs 2 days of sch!~ hmmz. yeEsterdae wasnt tT bAd... morning had lesson at 9 ..but reached sch at 8 plus cuz they wanted to collecT money to buy notes. kaoz. the notes all. lik so damn heavy lo. n so eX. had lectureS n turotials yeSt...comm skills n maths. comm skills was quite ok lor.. buden matHs...at fIRst din quite unds.. but later tt ask my clssmate. den agar agar noe liaoz. latEr tTt hAd bREak fOr arNd 2 hRs...sLAck in e cAnteEn n go collecT eZlink aLl tt stuffs. den had 1 hr of tutorial lo..den can go hm le... met with manda ...go find jM n alvIn. go tiong bAHru plazA eAt ...sAkae de buffet. ordEr till so muCh. haHAha...we ate 30 plus plates. i was damned hungry lor...i starved myself during lunCh mA. amanda tOo. hAHa. deN wALk abit ....my dAd cALled mi n he came to fETch mi hm. my bAG wAS sO dAMn heavy..culdnt stand it.
today morning .. woke up earlier lo. cuz had to reach earlier ma..lesson start at 8... saw waiyan at the mrt station..hAHaz.. den mi n my clssmates walked to lab ... but we sumhow lost our way?? luckily the leccturer nt tt fierce. hahaz latEr tt. .had uRm. lectuRe. caN sleep lah. vEry very tired. we had 1 hr earlier off frm lecture...so wen to eat?? had marketing lecture n tutorial... ended at 1 ..was suppoesd to haf lab at 3. but actually today de lab dunnit to attend ?? n no one knew... so we were lik .. wasting our time for 2 hrs in sch b4 knowing tt we dunit to attend lab today?? so we wen bak at lik..3 pluS instead of 5? everyone was like..."wah...." dUh~ aniway juz nw wen to look arnd the club crawl wit manda...she signed up for vB. den eunice n the bunch of ogL gurls were there. den kena 'pulled in' too. but aiya dun tink i will join ba? las min gm tell mi sae wanna go fer band prac tonite at nyp..but in e end nv go lo. saw alot pple todae!!! saw ... eileen ... melissa [fr peps]... roselin...[shocking!] ..yong an ..bla bla. im tired. i wonder..hw m i gona spend my nx 3 yRs ?

8:47 PM


Saturday, July 03, 2004
its a sat morning today. but firss. let mi tok abt yesterday. i woke up at arnd in e afternoon at 1plus to receive kY's call. she was at sim lim to buy a laptop bag..but apparently she din noe her laptop size..n wanted to go hm to get her laptop den go bak sim lim square to buy. since we were starting british council lessons again n were going together later... why not ? so i got out of bed. n went out to meet her n zt at jE. den we alighted at bugis.. ate firs. cuz i waS so darned hungry. we ate lJs. i aTE combO 3. feEl so fat. boohoo. den we walked to sim lim . n she bought her laptop baG. tEEheEz. hMMz. we still had sum time left den. so we walked arnd bugis village..den go parco take piX!! kEkeX. we took on two diff machinEs. deN latEr tT ... wE weN to take mrT tO british council. met gm halfway. but we sort of had a misunderstanding ?? n he seems to b angry at mi nw...havent replied my sms yet. =[ sadded. den jm smsed mi asked if i wanted to join him n alvin to watch midnite movie...but i cant! gRr. nvm. after my lesson .. i went home. watchedd tv n slept at arnd 3plus bahz. today woke up at 7plus. damn early rite.hah. wanted to go huayi get my o level cert ma..den today the singnet person cuming my hse do the wireless tingy at 9am..so haf to reach hme by 9aM so went there earli lor. reached hyss den see so mani pple i stun. actually is todae they having o level chin lC~ hahaz. the firs person i recognized was tbc. he shouted my name . hahaz. so pauiseh. hee. den i go office wan to take de. den saw the janitor. she tell mi office clerk 9 am den cum. diao. den cannot take lor . i went for breakfasT with my dad n bro at je. den go hme wait for tt singnet guy cum make wireless. heh heh. den he came..i was reading all e way in my rm. felt lik sleeping. so tired lor. bleh. den when i wanna slp.. my dad came in tell mi ok liaoz. can go my sch take the cert le. -_-"' so. we went. yaye. gt my olevel cert. deN go bt timAh eat lunch. din haf much appetite. jM caALLed? asked mi wanna go eat sweNsenS with him n aLvin in e lAte afternOon.. i agREed one den later tt on my way hm.. i felt..funny. like my fits were cuming bak. so to play saFe... i cancelled out on them..sorriez jM. anD now im hme...caNt waiT to geT my owN lAptop deN cAn usE nEt iN the comfort of my own rm..heHz. my dad sae two or three week later deN buy ... hAIz.

**::fEeLing sAd n doWn::**

1:38 PM


Thursday, July 01, 2004
hMmmph. today i slept till 3 den woke up!!! hahahz .. i slept at arnd 2 plus las nite...so it was like...i slept for 12 hrs pluS? PIG. yest went to work .. den limay cum find us. hahz. had a hell of a time. was stocktaking yesterdae...den lik everytng also muz count. aniways david did the stock take. phew? den we left at arnd 10.45pm lik tt lor. ate alot las nite!! hmmz actually wen i woke up...i made ham omelette.. but it seemed tt i breaked 3 eggs into my omeleete...and den bcum lik so much. finished it anyway. den work tt time hungry le. we ordered pizza. hee.canadian 2for1. both hawiaan.niupi they all also wanna eat. canadian pizza de hawaian lik nicer den pizza hut de. or was it cuz i was simply too hungry?? haha. i dunch noe. anyway juz nw morning wake up le den complain awhile in net . den pulled myself out of the hse go buy lunch. reach interchange those bank/insurance pple pull mi tok. den made mi listen to them tok abt the insurance. grr. i was like ..so hungry lor. and one of them de name is andy!! hAH! finally they let mi off..den went to buy my food. came hm n eat...watched tv at e same time ..the shows i recorded las nite. i din wen out todae!!! haha...so happi. whole day stay at hm...but i also haven clean my room n table. which i planned to do todae. arghz. tml ba?

10:16 PM



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