Thursday, February 16, 2006
valentines day yesterday.
spent it at home stuck with doing the project report while others are enjoying outside.
even my single friends.
spent the whole blardy day at hm with my laptop.
how sad can it be.
no nothing.
hais.
realized most of my frens arnd mi are attached.
and SOME ppl.
las time when shes single. she kept complaining to me hw lonely she felt. whenever its valentines or christmas or whatever shit occasion tt couples spend together, she wld come find me. in fact, WHENEVER she needs accompainment, she wld look for me.
and NOW?
she's attached.
and where does tt leave me?
zilch.
whenever i look for her nw, she's either with her bf or something else.
asking her out for a simple meal turns to bcome such a difficult job now.
even ask her out for a meal with our ex teacher seems such a diff chore now. she nits to think so hard if she's free anot. summore last time is SHE suggested wan to haf a meal out with our ex teacher one lor. now bcum she so damn busy. busy with wat? her bf. wat else. if its last time, she wld agree immediately, in fact she wld b so free. she dun even haf to think so hard jus for a meal out. when ever i jokingly raised this issue, she wld come out with alot excuses to defend herself. yala yala. waatever u wanna say to defend urself. i noe hw u tink n feel inside la. ur world nw is all evolving arnd ur bf la. even when we r out. she wld tell me abt her bf. starting with 'my boyfriend...' i mean . come on la. i noe u haf a boyfriend now. u don haf to boast abt him to me k? i dun nit to know anything abt him. i dun even want to know. its just so not you. i just feel so uneasy whenever u start with 'my boyfriend...' i dun wanna listen anymore. n my birthday. u didnt even bother to wish mi a simple 'happy birthday'. i tot mayb u had forgotten or wat, so fine, i didnt mind much. and so i waited, thinking u wld msg me the nx day. but did u? no. u did nt. such a disappointment. so much for always exclaiming that i'm ur best girlfriend. when i saw u, i jokingly mentioned it. n u quickly diverted it to another subject. i mean. please la. last time b4 u n ur tt bf gt together, when u 2 were mere frens. when u barely knew him much, u were so eager to get him a christmas present. getting me to help u choose. making mi wait there for u while u choose between 2 silly soft toys for him. and i only wanted a simple birthday wish from u, u did nt even care. wat the fuck?? oh. whatever. since u dun care abt me anymore, i shant either. u can care abt ur bf all u want. no one's stopping. i wun look u up unless u look me up.
2:05 AM
