Thursday, December 29, 2005
currently feeling so down. its so all of a sudden tt i felt so down. DOWN. sad. some stuff are really just so unpredictable. i wanna tok to someone. i cant write it down here. no. i cant. AH! i'm falling. i cant control myself. i nit help. just now in the afternoon rose called. yea. she had tis job lobang for me. also telemarketing la. dunnit to sell ting. jus surbey ppl abt their job . bla bla bla. basic pay is 5/hr. but if gt ppl agree to something (i forgot wat) can get 10 bucks. and if they actually came down for the interview can get additional 3bucks. somethng like tt la. cant remember. it sounded quite good. there r 3 shifts. 10-2, 2-6 or 6-10. 4hr per shift la. but i dunno if i shold take up the job offer. cus of the OPEN HOUSE!!!! its in like.. less den a months time?? n nth is confirmed. arghs. n i am the ic for it. i feel so sucky. i don tink im suitable to b ic for ANYTHING. i jus don haf the power n determination or wahtever. its jus so maddening. i wanna take up the job. but i cant jus simply shirk off my responsibility as the open hse ic right? its jus nt right. no! rose asked mi to call her bak nx wk to confirm if i wan the job. arghs. AH!!! i feel so irritated. so sucky. arGHS. haiz.
dont treat me so good if u don haf feelings for medont treat me so good unless u wan me to fall for youdont treat me so good otherwise i will fall for youi think i'm already doing it
10:10 PM
